Looking out the airplane window, I'm reminded of how big this world is. It's 23 hours of travel from Australia to home and that's just a teeny, tiny, glimpse of another spot in the world I've been fortunate to race. Now that my season has wrapped up, it's reflection time on my 2014 journey through triathlon. But first, how was Ironman Australia?
It was exceptional, the way one can hope to end a good season. My mirror hung my goals where every day I could focus on them, soak them up, and see them growing into reality. It's pretty surreal to see, "what you put in, you get out", come into motion. But it's the truth. So while it may have looked entirely like swims with dolphins and barefoot beach runs in bikinis, that was just the pretty part. Something Coach Cotter taught me this year, is that you have every right to feel confident and brave on the start line if you have done the work. It's like our duty to feel that good, we earned that peace. We make these goals, I hang them up, then work for them. If we land amongst them in training and control everything within our control on race day there is a great chance of them happening. With all my heart, I went into Ironman OZ believing a 9 hour Ironman was mine for the taking. That was my race day goal. Of course an athlete always wants to win, but I'm learning that winning happens only sometimes. Other times girls are just faster, but we can still win against ourselves. So that was my mission, win my personal race of 9 hrs and see where that would land me. Quick spoiler, I landed 6th with a 9:08. Race day went like this...
:53 Swim. I goofed up around the end of the jetty, admittedly a lack of focus, loosing my draft looking at what I think was a shark. My focus in long swims is my weakness, coach usually has me count to 3 over and over just to hold my brain in place. The ocean serves up plenty distractions for a girl like me. I've come a very long way, but once again need to add that to my 2015 list of improvements worth making. Nonetheless, I was thrilled with my swim, coming out near the front of the race. 4:57 Bike. Nailed that one. We worked hard on the bike and part of me throughout the ride was tempted to go harder, faster, and take a chance. But the day was going so well, figuring I'd grab my run goal too, if I stayed smooth out there on two wheels. So I hung easy-ish, smart-ish, and patient, focusing on drinks and eats for 112 miles. 3:14 Run. I must admit it felt awesome jumping off the bike after a ride of holding back, but I missed my goal by 8 minutes. Humbly, bummed, as I truly worked so dilligently for it in training, was calm on the bike to save for it, and then it just didn't happen. I've yet to chat with Coach about it since I lack cell service until I land in the States, maybe he has something better to say than me just being slow. I can't chalk it up to nutrition, poor pacing, or blisters as none of that happened. In fact, I raced in my Zoot teeny, tiny, neon green racing flats and have the best post Ironman feet I've ever had!! Maybe my body was just not firing off race day magic from a long season, it was my 6th Ironman in 12 and a half months, but I can't even formulate an excuse. I don't feel tired, but I'm first to admit I'm human, and I wanted my 3:06 like a chubby kid wants cookies.
Yay, another strong result this season. 6th place male (Simon Cochran) and female
That was my beautiful 140.6 miles in OZ, a 9:08 Ironman PR for me and 6th place female. When I raced here in 2012 a 9:08 won the thing and my 9:26 earned me 4th, clearly the competition is getting faster and I'm happy to see I'm growing too. It truly is an exciting time to be a professional female in triathlon right now and I am so grateful to be part of the rise, hopefully motivating the next generation of girls to, "Dream a little bigger darling...".
"Nothing splendid has ever been achieved except by those who dared believe that something inside of them was superior to circumstance." Bruce Barton.
That was my motivating quote heading into the race, as circumstances in my own life needed me to rise above them and dare believe, not allowing heart break and change to derail my dreams. Undoubtedly, one of the best races of my career did result. Without messy details, it was doors closing and windows opening prerace. The pillars of love and life I had known and rested on over the last 3 years fell down and I knew it was time to let go or fall with them. When I needed to cry, I let myself cry, when I felt like laughing I did it in abundance, and when hope would happen, I took note knowing, "this too shall pass". In some little way, Ironman was my new pillar of strength. It brought out good friends, miles of training to chip away at emotions I would rather not rest on, and it gave me confidence that perhaps, I was lacking without notice. I believe all over again...
2014 triathlon season quickly sums up to this:
Ironman Cozumel 5th (Nov. of 2013, but counted as my 2014 qualifying year)
Ironman New Zealand 4th
Ironman Texas 4th
Hawaii 70.3 2nd
Ironman Whistler 1st
Ironman Hawaii 16th
Ironman Western Australia 6th
And now, per Coach Cotter, a month off.
Post race highlights...
Meat pies, purple flower picking, beaches, Fat Duck coffee shop, Taj Burrows house.
Oh yes, triathlon has opened doors, marveled me in mysteries ways, and shapes so much of who I am. It has also taken me to places on Earth most will only see in books. And while all the travel and rich cultural experiences I've come to know are true gems in my life, it is not the extraordinary that makes me smile and ignites me to believe my life is such a blessing, it's the ordinary, little things, that I am most enriched to have in my life. Like notes from my little sister before I fly. Hugs from my son. Being on the other side of the world but texting to a friend back home and laughing as if we are sitting side by side. Kind people, like the Townsends. My beautiful families unconditional support in just being me. Strangers I meet and call friends all because we shared a bike ride. And green tea wherever I am. The list goes on, and on, little things...
Last but not least, I have an enormous list of people to thank, for without you I would not have had the season in sport (or life) that I am so grateful to have experienced. My list includes many, many strangers that have in some way helped me out too, so thank you wherever you are in this big, big world tonight, I'm thinking of you!! My family, you always let me go and do, thanks for never clipping my wings as a kid and encouraging me to have childlike faith as an adult. Coach Cotter, holy cow you put up with a girl who does not use power, analyze or crunch numbers, and is nowhere near the Tri-nerd I should be with my data, yet we make it work out because of trusting what you say, I just do. Thank you for working with me, you're a genius in helping me jump over hurdles in both training and racing! Bike Works Hawaii, I love you tremendously for being there since day one and allowing me to have you as family beyond sport. Zoot Sports, always advancing what you do with shoes, wetsuits, and sporty clothes, makes it that much easier to make gains where it matters. Thank you for giving me all I need to train and race from head to toe. Ceepo Bikes, my dream machine on two wheels, it helps being confident and comfortable for 112 miles, thank you for providing me with my trusted bike and your constant encouragement. Splish swim suits, thank you from the bottom of my heart for making pool swims easier to manage, I admit to liking practice some days only so I can wear something fun and funky from you! Rolf Prima Wheels, mahalos for my light and strong training and race day wheels, both of which I have grown to depend on over the last two seasons. Cheers to you coach Steve of Kona Aquatics, truly a legend and I'm lucky to learn from you in and out of the pool. Bioastin Hawaii, I am so thankful for all the green you add to myl life, for without you id struggle to wake up and go again, and again. Brooke and Nick, thank you! You took Kainoa and me in the last couple weeks and have been the best part of our days, love you guys and the yoga! To the home stays this season, the Townsends, Greyhound in Texas, Liz, Listel, truely you became family away from home! It was a blast sharing meals, sharing laughter, and having a sense of belonging far from Hawaii. I love each of you and know my races were better for what you made possible for me. Tammy, Marianne, and Katie, I think of you has my three angels, the ones that are always there, yet I'm the only one who knows how you're blessing my life. Thank you beyond words for the massive roll you play in my life. Kawika, you crazy fool, thank you for moving me out of my house during Ironman Hawaii and literally picking me up when my world fell down, putting my stuff in storage, and making me focus on my sport, you were right, it got better! My training partners, what a blast, truly life is better shared and I'm better for you!! Dea, Mog, Sal, Keish, I will always think of this special year as our year!! Kona Aquatics and anyone else I shared miles with around the world, thank you, xo. Odin Wilmont, Junko Sheilds, Denice Murphy, you are the best back cracker, joint fixer, ART person, massager, actupunturer team in the universe!! Unbelievable we made it through such an incredible season injury free! Thank you for taking such amazing care of my body. Wendy and Stacy, you are truly my sisters and I adore you for helping with Kainoa and my life outside of sport. Thank you for girl talks and prayers. My Kainoa, thank you for keeping me humble, balanced, and passionate all because of your smile. Jim, for helping with Kainoa when I travel, makes it easier for me to be away knowing he has a great father! Mike, you have been a huge part of my sport and life, thank you for being on the sidelines for me and in the game for the time we shared over the years leading up to this tremendous season. And though our relationship came to an end this year, I still appreciate the help you gave me and even cheering for me on my last race of the season. I bet you miss my stinky shoes, though. Crossfit Kona, I'll be back! My season began with you and I know it helped build up strength to last throughout the season, thank you so much for my muscles!! Okay, I hope I mentioned all the support I've been given, my apologies if I forgot anyone, truly no help has went unnoticed this year, like amazing flight attendants, great servers, and volunteers in each and every race!! Oh....and you, my friends that actually take the time to read this!! Thank you so much for being a part of this journey. And God, thank you too... But you already knew that.
Driving on the left side of the road was much easier this year than previous visits to Australia, but I confess to knocking over a rubbish bin, driving on the right side, and not waiting my turn at the round abouts. Laughter indeed filled every inch of me to the point we pulled over a few times to resist peeing our pants. I already want to return to OZ. But no thoughts of sport are supposed to entertain me till after a good mental and physical recharging of my batteries. My battery recharge began with plenty of meat pies today! I feel like chubby wee at the moment and am enjoying it until coach gives me the green light to become fit again. Okay, let the holidays begin! Of course sport will always be within reach, I'll just be giving other parts of life more attention. So much love, Bree
And the final awards podium of the season, we all look so sad for a bunch of fast women Sunday. I need to work on that podium face and not hiking up one side of my dress, hahaha! Thank you Ironman Western Australia for another great event! Volunteers, you outdid yourselves for us and I appreciate it tremendously! Little town of Busso, see ya again, of that I'm sure...