Monday, March 10, 2008

Left Side...

Did you know even in swimming the Aussies swim on the left side of the lane??? I found that out crashing into my lane mates a couple times this morning after pushing off the wrong side of the pool. As for biking... I am not sure how long it will take me to figure out that I have to bike on the left side of the road. After my long ride tomorrow I hope I got it under control!

I have been feeling a bit on the "wrong side" all day today. I know I have lingering home sickness I have been bottling up but today I found out just how much. 5:30am on the pool deck I stood and in a moments time the thoughts of my life in Kona, seeing coach Steve at the edge of my lane, my lane mates, Hualalai Volcano in the back ground, my short course pool, Kainoa running on the pool deck were all of a sudden so far away. I am far away. It felt wrong. Swimming felt wrong too. I could not get my mind or heart to pull myself together. Poor coach Paul, I know him seeing a crying home sick me is not exactly a good sight at that hour of the day. Pretty much he gave me some tuff-love and told me to get my $h!t together.

Here I am now, almost bed time and I think I have my $h!t together... at least I hope so because I have to face that pool tomorrow morning and I am in no mood for being on the wrong side again all day tomorrow...


Beth said...

I know you have the strength to pull yourself together Bree!! Focus on one workout at a time and you'll get there!!

The Lord God is my strength; He will make my feet like deer’s feet, and He will make me walk on my high hills. —Habakkuk 3:19

You can do it!

TB said...
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TB said...

When I wander through the desert
And I'm longing for my home
All my dreams have gone astray
When I'm stranded in the valley
And I'm tired and all alone
It seems like I've lost my way

I go runnin' to Your mountain
Where your mercy sets me free
You are my strong tower
Shelter over me
Beautiful and mighty
Everlasting King
You are my strong tower
Fortress when I'm weak
Your name is true and holy
And Your face is all I seek

--Strong Tower (Kutlass)

Trigirlpink said...

You were to surely have these moments and you know that. If you didn't you wouldn't get stronger, right? You will have another most likely but will be that much more prepared to brush it off, get on with your day, train hard and soon you'll be back home tough as nails and ready to ROCK THE SEASON! :-)

Anonymous said...

I know how tough that is and then feel the guilt of being gone...but you know what? YOU CAN do this...and you will soar above all the homesickness and just excel out there in Aussie land and come back even a better person, mom, wife and triathlete - just 3 weeks of your life - that is nothing. So, get training - head down, heart strong and head strong! Jen H. :)

Kellye Mills said...

It's ok to be off one day... You are SUPER tough! I'm learning to suffer physically this year. Now, you've got to get out there and learn how to suffer a little emotionally. What do we have to remember... it sucks, it hurts, BUT it's temporary and TOTALLY worth every ounce of effort.

You can do it Bree!!

Sending you hugs!!

Marit Chrislock-Lauterbach said...

Hang in there Bree, hang in there. Head down, gut-check time... you can do it. This is why you are the incredible person that you are - because you care so much about others, about your family. You have a heart - a big one at that. And while it helps you excel tremdously when training and racing, its hard when you miss your family, your loved ones. But they don't want you to be sad... they want you to be happy, to be Bree! Understand its normal, but everyone supports you. What an amazing, compassionate human you are Bree! You can do it!

Naughty said...

In an IM a darker, less optimistic valley is nearly that time we check the things we can; our pace; our nutrition, our hydration.....when they are spot on we march on and the valley soon becomes level road again....when something is off we slow down and correct the issue as best as possible.....and march on....the road will become level again. Ironman can be likened to a metaphor for life.....there's no question. Your journey in OZ will have valleys; it is a change from your routine...remember.....the road will come level again; and this too shall pass.......always remain calm. Even in the emotions of the valleys. Mentally this is key in a competitive IM....and in life...the keys to rock solid IM execution and to serenity in life.

Here's a golden training opportunity to become even more solid mentally than you already are.

Anonymous said...


Trust me. I know exactly how you feel. I am here in Kona for the next month working on LavaMan but without James. I LOVE Kona but I do miss my husband. I wish you were here as well. I know that time will fly with all your training but it seems to me the first couple days are worth crying about and then everything gets better from there because you are that much closer to returning home after a great experience! I pray for your strength each day. This is God's purpose for you right now and I think that probably the hardest thing to hear but at the same time I find it brings total peace in our hearts! See you in less than a month back in Kona!

Lindsay Cotter

Mel said...

It is all part of the is so normal to be missing your Little K and if crying and missing him helps then do it as many times as you need to....SOON enough you will be back with him and him in your arms and you guys off to your private beach :)

Way to hang tough during the race even though you were tired!! That would drive me nuts doing everthing the opposite of our NORMAL way!!! Keep going strong!!!

Brooke Myers said...

It feels like a little piece of you is missing from my life as well Bree. NO you, at the time trial, no you beeping me through out the day. No you to to chat with after I have a great work out and I need to hear you tell me you're proud of my work.

All - in - all,
you are where you need to be at this very moment, doing what you need to be doing to get where you need to go in your life.

If you chose not to go you would be wondering all the wonders of the experience, so while you are there at this very moment - do suck it up, train your a** off and get your head in the right frame of mind. Time passes all too quickly and soon enough this experience will only become your memory and not the moment.

Take each piece of criticism, advice, lecture, etc. as something positive to help you grow as an athlete and individual.

Hang in there Bree, wake up each morning setting an intention for the day mentally and prepare yourself for all you have ahead of you....
P.s How was the Yoga class???

Sarah McMillan said...

Awe Bree, your sister sounds so sweet and supportive. Nice comment Brooke. I like that, harden up and get through it, if you don't try you will never know what could have happened. Great lesson for life! And I know you will do just that Bree. Your so strong. Hang tough.

Katie Weaver-Jongerius said...

You probably don't need another person saying this but "YOU CAN DO IT!" We ALL believe in you, your family believes in you...believe in your inner strength!

rachelross said...

Wee - hang in there, tomorrow will be a new, better day! Naughty's response was incredible (Hi Naughty!) and so true. I think it was Paula Radcliffe who said that in every race there is a moment where she is having the best race of her life and a moment where she is having the worst race of her life, and hard days are indeed practice for those low moments.

Wish I was there with ya! I hope tomorrow is a wonderful day.


ShirleyPerly said...

Well, no wonder I haven't seen you around Kona ... I should have checked your blog earlier!

Hey, do know about Skype ( It's a way to be able to call others for free over the internet using a webcam. It's great because you can both talk and SEE each other. My husband and I do it all the time when we're apart, which is quite often. It worked fine when he was in Germany. All you need is a good internet connection and computers with webcams.

Brent McMahon said...

Hey Bree

I like your blog, I have a bunch of photos from Maui with all the guys on some of our training sessions.

TICA MACHA said...

Well, this is the place to come for words of inspiration.
All on the left side, huh? That was a surprise to read. Wondering if they are more "left-brained"?
Pull it all together and give it your best shot. You'll look back one day with awe.
Teri in Costa Rica