Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Plan On...

We did it. Coach and I finally came to agreements on 2009. Where and when is put on paper...and it looks like loads of fun. A lot of the same and a couple new races. Of course I am in no rush to end off season... I fully believe in total recovery of mind and body (even though it gets a bit challenging). This year was incredible in so many ways. The experiences will forever remain with me. The people I met and places I saw are CHERISHED! (I love my job)!

Before kicking off 09 I am going to extend the off season... Kainoa and I will head to Florida in a couple weeks for holidays with the Florida Family. My gift to my parents is 8 days of SPOILING Kainoa while I take a trip to my second home away from home (more on that later, no bikes allowed.)

I will give you a hint...

My Tico family grows mango's...
We shower outside...

Nobody wears matching clothes...

Kids play in the streets barefoot...

We ride bikes almost everywhere! (no aero bars and helmets though)

Mis amigos hablan en espanol...

At night we get into a lot of trouble, unless we are dancing salsa

I get to teach my little Spanish brother to swim :)

We swim in the shore breaks and get beat up by the waves...

I surf...

I surf more...

We ride bareback to get groceries...

We spend countless hours in hammocks...

We Jump off waterfalls...

I try to help the little children with their English...

And more horses... of course no shoes...

This place is so special to my heart... I spent summers upon summers with my best friends surfing and laughing. Truly enjoying life. One semester of school was also spent there, that is an experience I still have to pinch myself that I got to have. I even worked a summer there teaching English. My moments in this place helped me develop interests in life as I saw it in other people. Through the people, the language, food, and music, I realized life is throbbing with rich treasures...

After this heartbreak I have endured all season long I have come to realize I need to return to the place that taught me to smile and love and be strong. Just because you fail at something, such as a marriage, does not mean you are a failure and have to hurt forever. The only thing I know to do is start over. The only place I know to go is the place that taught me that lesson.

Soak up the off season...
Bree

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36 comments:

Damie said...

Beautiful- returning to the root of happiness is good. Enjoy your trip :) And, if coach didn't schedule it already, you could always tell him to keep Memphis In May in mind. It would be kinda of far to travel for an Oly, but I think there is a decent purse prize to pros? Elvis too maybe???

LeAnn said...

Dont forgot to pick me up on the way.

Molly said...

Huge hugs - no, just because something doesn't work out doesn't mean that you are a failure or that you can't have another success later. It's life and sometimes these things don't happen the way we hoped they would when they began (take it from me: been there, done that! and was scared to tell anyone for a long time because I was so embarassed at "failing" a marriage). It sounds like you are taking a good approach (lucky maybe that it coincides with off-season?) to recharging yourself personally so that you are ready for new challenges next year. Have a wonderful trip!!!

TriGirl Kate O said...

Your post brought tears to my eyes. My Christmas wish for you is for lots of laughter and fun in Costa Rica to bolster you through the next year. Travel safe!

Kona Shelley said...

I sure hope they have internet there and you can keep us updated on your most awesome adventure. Best wishes to you and your son!

Jill Costantino said...

Enjoy your trip and everything it offers you!!! And lucky grandparents 8 full days of spoiling woohoo!!!

Roo said...

Amazing post Bree! Have a blast!

Val said...

Bree, just think as going back to the basics of life. Best of luck in Costa Rica. I haven't been back to my native Nicaragua for 28 years, and wish life was as simple as it was 28 years ago now. I know you will find that smile and happiness again soon.

Leah said...

Lots to look forward to. Enjoy it!

Beth said...

Hope you have a most wonderful trip Bree. Your heart won't be broken forever. Costa Rico is a great new start. Enjoy!

MandyB said...

New starts all around! You are strong and kind, Bree - keep carrying that love with you and you will overcome any obstacle! Glad to hear you have such a wonderful support system!

Charisa said...

You will have an awesome time - enjoy it!!

Maijaleena said...

Have an amazing trip!

UntPawGal02 said...

Hope you have a great time!!!!!

Julie said...

I admire your strength and courage -- going through a break up is physically and emotionally draining, never mind exposing your personal feelings on a blog. It really is amazing what you were able to accomplish this year (as a pro!) what with all this hoopla going on in the background.

You have a generosity of spirit that inspires people to become better themselves. I think that is why I really enjoy the blog world -- I've learned so much about myself, and the journey has just begun!

:) :) :) :) :) :)

Go Gammie said...

Bree, it looks like you will have a great time visiting and relaxing on your trip. I can not believe you will not be taking your new aero helmet for the commutor bike rides.
Enjoy the so called "off season", I know you will be ready to race when the start gun goes off, and there will be less weight on your shoulders. Your attitude and determination is a model for all of us athletes to follow.

High five!!!!

Mama Simmons said...

Wow- looks like it'll be good to get away!!
Time heals all wounds... You are obviosly surrounded by lots of people who really care about you! :)

Bruce said...

Have a good trip. You should send Brooke to Costa Rica. I am sure she would love playing with the kids there.

Shawn and Tracy said...

Sounds like the perfect place to go. Enjoy, embrace and be lost for a while.

Hugs,
Tracy

Ordinarylife said...

Looks like you will have a fabulous time!

ADC said...

That looks awesome and is a kind of life I like - simple. Hope you have a great time!!

Cricket said...

Love this post! Can't wait to see you and Kainoa!
Free to Be Bree...it's a beautiful thing!

Flatman said...

You will NEVER EVER be a failure...

You are a WINNER!

Kim said...

Thinking of you so much and knowing that this trip is going to bring you so much joy, so much laughter and a feeling of "home" that will warm your heart!! I can't wait to hear about it from this end and share the adventures in Costa Rica and the many adventures of the 2009 season Bree. So much to look forward to, this is only the beginning. I'm with you in spirit.

Meredith said...

Bree, Really GREAT post...heartfelt, honest, sincere...I am sorry to hear that you are going thru these tough times...I sorta sensed in the past month of your blogs, but wasn't quite sure...weird, I don't even know you..but I feel for you girl! Heartache....ouch! the worst kind of pain....if it were easy, we'd never get stronger, right???

Have a great holiday season...
;)

Cy said...

GREAT times ahead!! Enjoy.

And Ditto on what Flatman said... You will never be a failure. Chin up!

Val said...

Bree: Thanks for your kindness. Have a few platano maduros for me, along with nacatamales (Nicaraguan Tamales) for me :-) Perhaps one day we'll get to compare notes on Costa Rica. I still remember going there on holiday when I was a kid

Viv said...

Bree, I have been reading your blog for a couple weeks now. I am always scared to comment.

Anywhoo, I enjoy reading your posts. You are on cool chickie and above all else a wonderful Mom!

I hope you have a wonderful time in Costa Rica. I hope it will help mend your heart and mind to keep you smiling .

Wes said...

and I would go so far as to say that things happen despite our best efforts. Does that mean we failed? No. It means, we did not finish... :-)

ShirleyPerly said...

Have a great trip and may you find more smiles, love and strength there!

Sarah said...

This was beautiful. Bree, you are in no way a failure. And even if your marriage itself failed, that in ITSELF was not a failure because of all the wonderful things that came out of it. Kainoa, of course. But think of all of the great moments you had, think of all of the things you learned - about yourself, about others, about relationships - you have grown so much.

You deserve to go back to the root of your happiness and where your heart is happy and just BE! Just LIVE! I know you'll come back with even more energy and renewal to greet 2009 in a HUGE WAY!

You are awesome. I loved these pictures. Can't wait to hear about the next adventure. :)

michelle said...

been there too, unfortunately, but you seem to have a wonderful support system of friends and family and the love of a beautiful child - not to mention sun & surf!! :) go forth and thank you for sharing with us!

GoBigGreen said...

Bree, It will be good for you to have some time to reflect and recover in CR. Dont fear; There is too much fear in the world to have us internalize that in our own lives daily. Things happen for a reason and despite heartbreak and feelings of failure it will be ok. Sometimes i wonder "Why?" alot when things happen and i have started to figure out that isnt the best avenue of thinking sometimes bc it lets us spiral into doubt and fear...all over again.
Just my thoughts on this day that started at 12 degrees. Holy Moly
Girl, soak up that sun!
Best to you and happy holidays.

TICA MACHA said...

YOU GO GIRL!!
Can't wait to meet you.
I recognize Alberto from your pics.
I'll be your personal photographer while you are here. Teri

Dinger said...

I freaking love this blog...

The Young Family said...

Bree -

As your blogger friend you have never met! I say you are spot on with this post. Go find what makes you smile again, and you will begin to smile again from the inside out - Remember failures are what make us stronger! No doubt you are a courageous and strong person, you will get through this time, and you are getting through it already - one day at a time. Have a relaxing time and find your inner smile - it is there, you ust have to look.

Em